The wait to bring Liana home has been really hard. Today I decided to write her a letter. I grieve the time I am missing with our little girl. At the same time, I am looking forward to the day we can bring her home...
My Dear Sweet Liana,
I ache to have you in my arms. The wait to bring you home is so difficult and yet I know it will be worth it in the end when you are home. I love you so much dear girl. I did not carry you in my womb, I did not give birth to you and yet I don’t doubt for one minute that you are ours.
Ours… you don’t know it yet but you belong. You are seen. You are not known to us fully yet but you are KNOWN by your Heavenly Father. So many people have prayed for you sweet Liana. So many people asked that God would place you in a forever family. You were seen by Him and He orchestrated it so you would be seen by us.
I know you have had a difficult beginning. My heart hurts when I think about the pain your birth mother must have felt to let you go. My heart hurts because you may never know her. I shed tears when I think about the fact that you began the first years of your life not knowing what it is like to be in a family. We can’t wait to become your forever family. We have prayed for you long before we even knew you. Little one, you are so cherished and loved.
The wait to be near you is so hard. To think that you are alive and growing. To think that other people are taking care of you when we long to meet your needs. We look at your picture or videos every day. We tell you we love you. We celebrated your second birthday. You probably didn't even know it was your birthday but we celebrated it anyway. You are worth celebrating little one! You are fearfully and wonderfully made. You are a treasure…. our treasure.
I look forward to the day when we can hold you in our arms. It will probably be a hard day for you. My heart will break a little knowing we will be pulling you away from everything you have ever known. You will not understand what is going on. I pray that God is preparing your heart to meet us. I pray that you would grow to trust us and love us. I pray that you would know that you belong. You will no longer be an orphan. You will be a cherished daughter and sister. Oh how my heart looks forward to and longs for that day.
My heart is hurting so much today because I long to be near you. I know you will not read this right now. I know you don’t have any idea that your life is about to change. For me, the wait to be near you is excruciatingly difficult. However, the wait is worth it. You are worth it!!
I love you so much sweet Liana!
Mama
